My Mommy moment

I just had a moment.... it's late, I can't sleep, I am wound up from a crazy and eventful summer. Some of the events have been great, some have been hard, really hard. I am watching as a dear friend watches her five year old nephew battle cancer and it's complications, I am watching family members look for new jobs, I am watching people I love struggle with love and life, I am watching my kids growing and myself growing older too. The grey in my hair is getting to be harder to keep covered, the lines around my eyes are getting deeper and more noticable, my face is looking older and more weathered.... my purse is full of fruit snacks, out of the bag, covered in dirt and stuck to the loose coins floating at the bottom, it's gross and I never thought it would be like that, my mini van is full of crumbs and damp towels from swimming, my house is rarely the oranized and clean home of days gone by. It is littered with cut up pieces of paper ( Charlie loves to cut) dried pieces of play dough on the counter, birthday cake frosting on the stool in the kitchen and trains all over the floor. The moment I just had? It is simple and it is just this, I went and looked at my babies sleeping since I can not. They are sweet, they are beautiful, they are HEALTHY and they are mine. I am LUCKY, I am BLESSED and things are good. I have so much to be happy about. I am so glad to be a mother. My "baby" turns three this week and I honestly do not know where the time had gone. I am glad the my car, house and purse are a mess if it means that I can look at those beautiful sleeping angels when I can not and know that they are mine.